I've been working on my headstand, a particularly challenging yoga pose for me. It's also been an incredibly frustrating process for me--one that sometimes makes me want to take a box cutter to my yoga mat.
Enter Eric Maisel's
Creativity for Life: Practical Advice on the Artist's Personality and Career from America's Foremost Creativity Coach fresh off the mail truck.
Maisel has written numerous books on creativity and offers
workshops, podcasts, training seminars for
creativity coaches and more. Although his name was slightly familiar (like a passing scent you can't place), I wasn't familiar with his
oeuvre. But he definitely earned the book's subtitle in my eyes when I came across this gem:
"The ability to tolerate an uncomfortable state for minutes, hours and days on end, to tolerate that discomfort again and again, week in and week out, is the key to maintaining resolve. An inability to tolerate uncomfortable feelings will the enterprise of guided writing--or anything else--to a grinding halt."
Maisel was discussing the guided writing practice he recommends for creative self-awareness. But for me, he busted one of my major myths about creativity.
Creativity is uncomfortable? For me, this is a major revelation. I assumed when a person functions in her authentic creative state, things come easily and naturally, every minute is unadulterated joy, songbirds alight on her shoulder and woodland creatures coming out to sing her praises.
Jump to my vocal practice where working on a new song made me so wildly uncomfortable that I wanted to binge on a whole bag of
York Peppermint Patties. Believing that creativity wasn't supposed to feel that way, I started to second-guess my desire to sing.
According to Maisel, frustration and discomfort make regular co-starring appearances in the creative process. Maisel counsels acknowledging your feelings and their source. ("I don't want to practice this song because I doubt my ability to make it original and that makes me uncomfortable.")
But the key is to wait, breathe, and see if your willingness to keep going reemerges.
So I thought I'd try it today with the headstand. I prepared myself and made a promise that I would make ten headstand attempts today--good, bad or ugly.
The first two attempts went okay. Frustration started tugging at my yoga pants by attempt #3. By my sixth attempt, I was disgusted enough to walk away from my yoga mat, but I tried Maisel's advice. "I'm feeling uncomfortable because I think I'm capable of this but it's not coming to me as easily as I want." I took a few breaths and actually felt better.
By attempt #8, I had stopped focusing on how frustrated I was and really keyed into the physical things I needed to experiment with: walking my feet closer, focusing my weight on my arms, playing with my balance point.
I'd love to say that by #10 I'd perfected the pose, but I was just pleased to have (1) met my headstand goals for the day, and (2) walked away with a more positive, more focused idea of the things I need to work on--all without psychologically beating myself up or shredding my yoga mat into party confetti.